megalotta

Hello all,
I forgot my password for a while, but finally realized how to get back on here. YAY!
My daughter has joined Girl Scouts and is a Brownie now... She's selling cookies. If anyone is interested, please let me know. Thanks!

Oh yeah... and I've finally joined up on Ravelry for those that care. I'm "LadyMeg" on there. :)

Hey,
I'm in a choral ensemble and we're having out winter concert this coming weekend. Would love to see some friendly faces in the audience so stop by if you can!
There's more info on the group website:

http://www.amasong.org/

We've got some wonderful music to share... world music from places like Finland, Brazil, Zimbabwe, Australia, China, Egypt/Lebanon... as well as things a little closer to home like Appalacia.

The concert is free, but they recommend a donation of $10-20 if you can.

so for those of you who haven't heard, i have a job now. it's part time as a bread baker for strawberry fields. i have a set schedule, and currently it's mon, wed, fri, & sat 6am-2pm. i get out earlier if the bread is done cooling, sliced, and bagged quick enough. usually it's been between noon and 1 that i finish up. the schedule is perfect for me right now because my daughter is in school until 2:30 which means i only need someone to watch over her from about 5:30-8:30 each morning... and most of that time is her sleeping. since i live with my mother right now, the sleeping part is covered, but i have my dad and gf helping out for the part where someone needs to get her ready and take her to school.
so far i love the job. i definitely like the people i work with, which helps. i like that they pretty much only use organic ingredients in their bread baking. it rocks. i also like that i frequently get free bread and other stuff. yay free food!
i'm not sure how it's going to work out over summer, but i'll just have to have faith that someone will watch my kid... lack of school does make things a bit different, doesn't it.
whatever happened to kids being raised by the whole village? that's what it takes... or at least that's how i feel about it.
anyway, my daughter just found out via an easter card that she's a big sister. her daddy and his whoever had a baby boy. i'm happy because it takes the pressure off of me. my daughter's been bugging me for about five years to give her a baby sibling. now she gets one and i don't have to go through the hassle of raising it. :)
my daughter lost a baby tooth for the second time. each time we go through the discussion of "do you really believe in the tooth fairy, mom?" and my response being something like "do you ever know me to believe in anything that isn't very clearly factual and backed up by evidence?" it must be tough. i don't believe in the tooth fairy, but i also don't want to tell her not to believe in it... i kinda like the idea that kids believe in that stuff.
anyway, i'd better get off the computer. life calls out to me.

hey all, i just started a new lj blog. it will be dedicated to the process of sharing the projects i'm working on. irene'll be sharing it with me, so you can find stuff from here there as well once she gets on and posts.

knit2tog

go friend me there if you wanna know more about my knitting and artsy-crafty projects.

I am so very sick of my family.

I am so sick of people making plans with my daughter only to break the plans which really makes her sad, disappointed, & feeling unloved.

I am angry!

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I'll be going to a class in North Carolina from May 24-June 7. (the same school where I took my glass blowing class two summers ago) I'll also be taking a class later in the summer, Aug 10-22. If I get into the ones I have as my first choice, I'll be doing "the basics of steel smithing" and "hot summer fun" which is glass blowing. My girlfriend is also applying to take the classes with me. If we get in to the same stuff at same time and with some sort of scholarship, we'll get to have a bit of a learning vacation together. Won't that be a real blast! (not like it wouldn't be fun on my own... that would just make it amazing!)

This semester I've decided to skip any credit classes and instead focus on taking classes of stuff I want to learn. So, I'll be taking beginning glass beadmaking, beginning stained glass, and glass slumping and fusing basics from a local place as well as some belly dancing. My girlfriend and I will be taking a course in couples massage. :) I'm totally excited about all this. It's all non-credit, so no stress, and low-cost. Most of these are evening classes starting around 7pm.

Whenever I have energy, I'm working to get my house under control. Things are feeling okay today... I've really been fluctuating high and low lately. Today I'm up and working on cleaning my room. Hope I can get it done, or at least mostly done before I swing back down to the low end of my spectrum.
( Goals for my room: )
Yesterday my mom paid Shae to come and clean our kitchen. (what an amazing gift!) It had just gotten to the point where I was unable to get it back under control. It was simply too much. Now it's clean. I'm much better at keeping it up than I am at catching it up. Hopefully I'll be able to maintain it for a long while.

I'm close to caught up on laundry. Need to put away the folded stuff and that should be about it... maybe one or two more loads of the stuff that's straggling around in the mess of other stuff. I even managed towels, sheets, and blankets. :)

I have my daughter's room under control. I have more to go in there, so that might not last, but I have the potential to keep it organized. She loves having it nice and clean and does a lot to help maintian it luckily.

That's it for now... maybe will write again soon.

okay, so this week i've been knitting obsessed.
( in depth babbling about sock making )
my daughter's been ill all weekend, so i didn't get my usual break from her. she stayed here rather than visiting charleston like usual. as a result, i'm feeling like i seriously want to hide under my covers and be alone for a while.
instead, i think i'm going to go have lunch and hang out with irene tomorrow after i drop my daughter at school. i will probably spend much of that time knitting on little lavendar sockies though.
i should sleep now... more another day.

100% Dennis Kucinich
98% Mike Gravel
79% John Edwards
76% Barack Obama
75% Chris Dodd
72% Hillary Clinton
72% Joe Biden
69% Bill Richardson
32% Rudy Giuliani
27% Ron Paul
24% John McCain
19% Mike Huckabee
15% Mitt Romney
11% Tom Tancredo
7% Fred Thompson

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saw this on friend's blog and now see just how in line my beliefs are with the candidate of my choice.

by the way, did i mention that denis kucinich should have your vote!

today started okay, but then between a phone conversation this morning and my computer being a real pain all afternoon, i kinda lost all positive outlook i had upon waking. by mid-day i felt pretty crappy and ended up ignoring everything and everyone in my life for most of the day.
i'm sick of being me.
when things go wrong, it's like i can't just "take it in stride" and adapt. instead i short circuit. when the stress happens, i instead just withdraw and shrink.
i know that i pretty much turned off mentally for a few hourst in the afternoon and early eavening. took a while of mental effort to come out of it. still feeling wholly negative though.
suck suck suck.

i did a load of dishes and a load of laundry though... and had lunch with irene... so all was not lost.

is anyone planning a new year's party? i haven't been keeping up on the reading of lj lately and was wondering if i've missed something.

brain balancing seems to be going well for me. not so well for my mom, probably due to many reasons... such as - she's older and her brain is less spry, her issues are much deeper entrenched as a result of having them for far more years than i've had mine, and she has a far greater quantity of problems than i have. but, progress is being made and i actually kinda feel cheerful tonight. exhausted but a cheerful.
more sessions tomorrow.

Okay, this evening I spent time hanging out with my good friends at verizon. as a result, i have a phone that works. yup... i done got an upgrade. :) this new phone is just about the coolest thing EVER EVER EVER!!! it is what they called "ruggedized" which means it can withstands shocks, drops, and...



wait for it....



wait for it.........


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...


submersion.

yup, was tested for submersion of up to 1 meter for half an hour without being damaged. dropped 3 feet onto concrete sidewalk and came out okay. (not mine exactly, but another phone of the same make and model mind you.)

hopefully this one will work far better than the one i'm retiring.

anyway, i am feeling a little bit anxious. i leave sunday for indianapolis to have my brain essentially "defragged" and "debugged" so to speak.

Hope it makes living a bit easier for me so I can focus better on the things I want to be doing with my life.

I guess I've felt like taking a time off from being in touch with people. I've not read online stuff, answered phone calls, gone out with people, etc., for quite some time. Today, for the first time in ages, I feel like I want people back.

( The long version of what's going on in my life lately )

I am still very focused on my goals of cleaning house and putting it all together in a way that it's functional. Please forgive me if I am not very involved in social activities for a while yet. I miss having people around, but I guess doing this and spending copious amounts of time isolated from ppl is just part of my process. I don't think that it will last forever. Truly miss everyone, but am not exactly inclined to spend time or effort seeking people out to do stuff.

Am off to get ready for daughter's doc visit.

Hugs to you all!

Here's a speech given about 90 years ago that seems just as relevant today as it was then. Please take the time to read it.
Meg

http://www.thememoryhole.org/war/debs-speech.htm

I'm going to Dancing Rabbit Ecovillage with my girlfriend. Following that, I'll be helping her pack and move from where she is (3 hours drive north) to where I am. I'll be gone about two weeks. Might be able to check internet from time to time, but will probably mostly be distracted with living and having fun instead. Will get back in contact after my return.
Hugs all!

My dad has been a serious ASS all day and I need to vent a bit...
( Here's how my dad's been an ass if you want to hear me vent )
There's more, but that's a beginning to the vent... I feel I can move on...
Needless to say I was pretty pissed of at him most of the day.
( Mom's taunting me with stuff that is most likely not going to happen, but I want it to so am in serious need of MUCH LUCK! )
I guess that's it. I've got to go attend to some other stuff. (like folding laundry... it's really a never-ending battle, isn't it?)

Okay... so I took the plunge and did my hair different. I cut in some layers and dyed it dark purple. I'm thrilled with the results and can't wait to see all of you! Hope to see you monday at SubV. :)

what plumber would you recommend? having to get major fix done and my dad wants me to get a few estimates before we get things worked on officially.

I'm wanting to go visit Irene and was wondering if anyone could help with my chickens and garden... I'd like to leave tomorrow a.m. and return friday a.m. This means there would be six times I would need help. Morning time with chickens means opening their pens and filling their water and food dishes. Evening time is when I put the chickens back in their pens and water the garden. Basically it would be tue, wed, thu evening and wed, thu, fri morning. Maybe someone could do a.m. and someone else could do p.m.?
Would anyone be able/willing to done some or all of this care while I'm away? I can't pay at this time, but could throw together a dinner for you sometime in the next week or two.
Thanks in advance...

Oh yeah... I live in Urbana near Cottage Grove and Illinois Ave. It's about eight blocks east of Lincoln Square Mall. I usually do the p.m. stuff between 7:30 and 9:00 because they start to be more docile and calm around dusk... and they kinda gather near their pen as well which makes it much easier to put them away... and the morning stuff I try to do by 8:00am. (sometimes it gets pushed back to 8:30 or 9:00, but the earlier the better.)